A book of written word or poetic expressions of my addiction, my hurts, my confusion and pain as I sought a revelation of who I was. "You were the monster I thought was in my closets and under my bed, I could feel and not see. I am confused. Is love pain? Or pain love?You distorted my reality, turned lies into truth and truth into lies. Is love supposed to be this way?How can I find release?You have controlled so long.You have taken a child''s song and turned it into a nursery rhyme that no longer rhymes. You have stunted my growth. Even though I am grown. You can''t pretend to protect, you can''t do both."